Monday, August 12, 2013

Flipside of a Disappointing Summer


I feel that this summer has been one of the most fulfilling seasons of my life, particularly as a teacher and a burgeoning young adult trying to find her place in the world. I am honored to have had the opportunity to teach under the most influential mentors of my childhood, crossing the threshold between being a curious absorber towards becoming a proactive creator. I am also grateful to have been granted so many bright-eyed, precocious students whose active minds exude colorful creativity, hope, open-mindedness and imagination. These are valuable attributes that most adults, and even college students, seem to have abandoned much too early. Although I have attained my personal goal of becoming a committed teacher and mentor to young students who are currently in the same exact position as I once was, this journey has been just that – a challenging adventure that leads to infinity, living proof that there is always room to learn and grow.
To be honest, my freshman year of college was an extremely exciting yet trying period, a year in which I was to live alone in a foreign place with no more mentors over my shoulder to guide me. My biggest challenge was becoming my own best friend, being able to form a new pillar of support upon the foundation of childhood lessons and guidance I had built up throughout my entire life. I learned how to stay motivated to do my best even when nobody was watching or encouraging me. I learned to assume full responsibility and credit for each of my actions and decisions, as well as their outcomes. I learned to make new quality friends who were entirely different than anyone I had ever known before. I learned to form my own set of values shaped by years of prior experience, tailored for each circumstance at hand. I learned to set new goals and challenges that really scared me, such as applying for my dream internship, taking an extra class on top of a busy schedule, and navigating the great big city by myself. I learned to seek help when I was struggling, and encourage others to do the same. I learned how to deal with feeling entirely alone.
I left Boston right after finals week, entirely disappointed and discouraged that I didn’t get the summer internship I had so coveted. Though I had sent in applications thoroughly and on time, my efforts were not enough. There I was, living out my worst-case scenario as just another factor in the unemployment statistics. Shoulders rolled forward and head hung in defeat, I rolled my suitcases back in the house, very unhappy to have nothing productive to do for four months in Wappingers while some of my high school friends had part-time jobs or even fancy internships in NYC. For a short while, the disappointment led me to stifle my formerly lofty dreams, and the summer blues set in. I struggled hopelessly to rediscover inner peace, always looking for busy work to occupy my time or distractions to offset my misery. Short stints of hanging out with friends, cooking, playing viola, blogging and reading were much too temporary; I needed something long-term, a project that I could chip away at all summer long, something I could use to set multiple goals and see a concrete result in the end.
Finally, I decided to return to my roots and ask old teachers and mentors if I could help them. I had always loved teaching as a tutor, tennis captain and private lesson teacher, as I felt that it was the best way to learn and share. Thankfully, Mrs. Lin and my private viola lesson teacher, Ms. Regan, were thoughtful and generous enough to lend me a hand and offer me positions to teach under their guidance. It took weeks of advertising my credentials to parents, making posters, phone calls, emails, setting up interviews, and arranging schedules, but finally Mrs. Lin was able to pull some strings and convince local parents to hire me. Ms. Regan also put in a good word for me around the music community, and soon I was hired to teach at a summer orchestra camp. I am so grateful for their help, and honestly don’t know what I would do right now without them.
Soon, I was busier than ever, and my work schedule became more rigorous and exciting. My parents were kindly willing to work from home in the afternoons and relinquish their cars to let me drive to work as long as I paid for gas. I decided to throw my whole heart into teaching kids to effectively read, write, think critically, appreciate music, be more sensitive to the world around them, and rekindle their passion for learning and making positive change, in hopes that they would be more prepared to face the world on their own later on.
I sifted through websites I had never had an interest perusing before, such as Scientific American, NPR Radio/News, and the science section of Huffington Post in hopes to find material that my students would be interested in reading. I brainstormed, constantly on the lookout for a potential reflection idea or assignment, project or presentation they might latch onto. I brushed up on my current events so I could practice what I preached and encourage them to broaden their global perspective. I thrived off of the energy and passion that Mrs. Lin always puts into her work, all the time and effort she spends thoughtfully innovating ways to make her kids shine. This attitude, of course, transferred over to our mission at Summer Strings as well; the same dedication and goal of enlightening kids held in terms of music. I listened to the students, their family backgrounds, habits, quirks, and nuances in hopes to learn more about them and further their potential. I wanted them to love learning and really think about the world, not just learn to take the SATs.
 Soon, I was teaching about eight students per week and parents had increased their tutoring hours. Mrs. Lin came up with the idea to showcase students’ creative projects in a fun way, through an e-magazine. She had compiled an entire CD with ninety pieces of student writing; after a lot of editing and selecting, I put up Students Speak Magazine. In a matter of a week, tons of kids were sending in the most professional-looking photo blogs, videos, short stories, piano performances and tutorials, setting the bar higher and higher for each other. Each submission was like a gem; so creative and full of life that it couldn’t help but ask to be shared with the world. Through this endeavor, I also learned how to use WordPress effectively; lingo like ‘widget’, ‘sticky posts’, ‘tags’, ‘posts’ and ‘pages’ weren’t so alien anymore.
Over time, I noticed a difference in our kids’ performance and overall attitude towards learning. Gradually, we were breaking down poor grammar habits and barriers obstructing their way of enjoying the learning process, such as lack of confidence, interest in learning, extensive vocabulary, and strong written voice. A handful of my students have recently become much more motivated to try harder and have truly evolved into quality learners. Most important to me is the character that every student developed this summer. Not only were these kids studious – they were passionate individuals whose hard work, persistence, kindness and positive attitudes led to great results. I am very proud of them for what they’ve done.
The disappointing summer turned out not to be filled with sadness, after all. I learned a great deal; how to be a more motivating teacher, to communicate with both children and parents, to be a good parent, even more SAT vocabulary, to use WordPress, to value essential skills like cooking and presenting just as much as SAT techniques, to ask for help and to be helpful, to stay organized, and to appreciate kindness and generosity when it comes. Life is unpredictable, and there are bound to be ups and downs - the only true constant is change. But sometimes, I suppose, all we can do is put in hard work towards our goals, be grateful for those who are kind to us, open our minds to inspiration and believe in the exponential power of learning. The results are more than rewarding.

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